Please Let Me Never Wake Up Again
I don’t even feel like writing this but I feel that I should so that people know not to push my buttons. Again sorry for the complaining and the negativity but this blog is where I get it all out so it’s your fault for following me D: When I said “one sucky day after the next” I freaking meant it. All of these…inconvientent things are happening to me everyday one after the other. I’ll be thinking about something else sucky that happened and while I’m thinking about that, something else sucky happens. I don’t know when it’s going to end but there is something seriously wrong with my life right now and I want it to stop.
What spurred these thoughts? First of all they are 2 or 3 weeks in the making, but I’ll just tell you the two awesomely shitty things that happened today alone. Someone from China or whatever hacked my myspace and my facebook. I don’t care about facebook, but I mean I talk to my cousins on that. NOT ANYMORE LOL.
Anyways, my myspace I care a lot about. That’s how I keep in touch with people. That’s what makes me feel connected to the world when I’m having a crap day (which I really need because crap days have been neverending for a couple of weeks now as I said before).
So last night Sarah suggested that I make a new myspace account and everything and just delete the other one. Last night I did just that and then this morning I was working on making it look all nice and whatnot before I actually friend requested everyone. So I go in this morning and I have new messages and friend requests and I’m like WHAT THE SHIT I DIDN’T EVEN TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS ACCOUNT HOW DO THEY KNOW. Well someone was sending spam from my brand-new account to the friends of my old account. HOW THE FUCK is all I was thinking. I was in total disbelief at this.
I came to the conclusion that I just needed to delete both accounts and start over in a few months. You know get the hacker bored and send the message that I am not going to make another one so he moves onto someone else. Plus then I’ll have my other laptop which is not a dell and apparently it’s dells that the hacker is hacking on. But that sucks because now I have no way to contact a few people on there. And you know who I’m talking about. But yeah minus myspace for a month or two.
The other thing that just happened today was the plumbing system failed big time in my house. I had 2 months of laundry and quite frankly I ran out of underwear and socks :/ So I began my load of dark clothes and 30 or so minutes later my grandfather comes in and is like, “Jill can you stop your laundry because it’s making the toilets overflow with sewage.”
There is literal shit all over my bathroom right now. My clothes are wet and soapy with detergent. I don’t have any clean underwear. I can’t go to the bathroom in my own house.
And this all on top of the fact that my grades are totally not what I or my mom wants them to be. She is expecting A’s in both of my chemistry classes and that is not what she is getting. And it matters because I’m majoring in science and A’s in everything but science is just…not great looking. I didn’t tell her about my D on that one test in chemistry and I did not tell her about accidently missing class on Thursday and getting a zero on the lab as a result. I didn’t tell her that I’m so stressed out because my final exams will be nearly impossible to all pass because I don’t have time to study nor room in my head for all 5 of them. She is going to get a disappointing surprise and you know what I can not do anything about it.
One thing I hate? Having no control. I had control over these grades before but I didn’t control them and as a result the control has been taken away. I suck. Life sucks.
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